PRECIOUS.....

Worried Precious...

2012-01-12T07:14:00.004+08:00

Hey guys,
It has been such a dreadful week for me...my another half been admitted to the hospital for almost 4days now due to dengue...my thought is tumbling around like a maniac nowdays...my brain refuse to rest...I am so tired but I cant stop worrying....I want to cry my heart out right now!! I hope my precious will be well soon... I am waiting for him...I will wait for you love do come back safe ... I miss u so much..... -_-

Ya Allah do protect him and please cure him from the illness.... I love him so much .... and I cant bear to be by myself without him by my side....Amin....

2011 Closure...

2011-12-15T15:03:00.004+08:00

2011...

merupakan tahun yang banyak membawa perubahan dan kebahagiaan dalam hidup aku...terlalu banyak dan ini telah membuatkan aku lebih menghargai kehidupan aku..terutamanya dengan kehadiran si princess bumble bee genit saya...susah senang kehidupan dalam rumah tangga pun dah aku rasai..it is not easy..but dengan kesabaran dan toleransi alhamdulillah ....birthday celebration tahun nie pun bnyk memberi makna kepada aku.....hadiah yang hubby berikan buat aku tersenyum sampai ke telinga..tak pernah aku sangka kan tapi sebagai tanda terima kasih atas pengorbanan..dan tanda cinta hubby kat aku dia belikan aku sebuah kereta idaman...white REXTON sesuci cinta kita orang berdua ..hahahaha....ada jer aku nie kan...tapi aku terpaksa let go my sweet kelisa...huuuhuhu...its ok untuk keselesaan sophie jugak kan...dan duit gaji yang dahulunya aku guna utk bayar kereta bolehlah dimasukkan dalam akaun ASB aku...untuk simpanan masa depan...yahoooo!!! hehhehehe..alhamdulillah....boleh la aku menabung skang....

and now....

aku tgh tggu the best ..greatest ever closure for 2011....to end my master....dah almost 2 tahun setengah aku bertungkus lumus and sekarang aku dalam proses membuat penutupan secara terhormat ...sebaik sahaja aku submit project paper n internship report aku....insyaallah boleh la aku menarik nafas lega.....closure tahun nie la yang paling mencabar aku..terutamanya kesabaran aku...sbb it is soooooOOO not easy nak siapkan kerja with sophie around ..urgHhhh!! only ALLAH yang maha mengetahui...tapi aku berterima kasih kepada yang membantu...especiallp my sister in law yang kat kuantan..dia la yang bnyk berkorban masa utk jaga sophie ..dan aku bolehla concentrate buat keje aku....sikit jer lagi..aku harap segala pengorbanan yang dh dibuat akan membuahkan hasil yang memberangsangkan...dan akan membuat kehidupan aku bertambah bermakna....as precious as my sweet lil bumble bee princess....

Sophie Jasmine - 4 MONTHS...

2011-11-15T15:23:00.003+08:00

Hehehehe...my last entry was during my bulan ke 4 pregnancy..and now my latest entry dah beranak k...and my baby gurl dah nak masuk 4 bulan ...cepat betul masa berlalu..

Dugaan yer bila dh ada anak, i really respect la moms in this world, i salute thee besar betul pengorbanan mak2 nie semua only now i know..like me i have to juggle my time as a wife, mom, students, trainee, sister...and daughter...pergh!! it is not an easy task OK..nangis jer keje aku kot...stress OK..nak kena abiskan praktikal + kaunseling report and i need to complete my project paper, mini research as a syarat untuk bergraduat..n with Sophie yg sangat chomel seeking for attention huhuhuhuhu aku sering tenggelam timbul...but alhamdulillah hubby always with me without him aku leh meroyan kot hahaha...dia bnyk sacrifice his time, kesabaran dan tenaga ...he cooks, he clean up the house..he takes care of sophie while am doing my work..sangat bersyukur..I told him I have to finish what I have started and this is what I dream of..selain dari having a great husband, cute daughter and happy family... ^_^.. he said insyaallah dia akan tolong apa yang termampu...ALHAMDULILLAH..

Aku nyer praktikal this week last...cant wait so that i can focus on my project paper and spend more time with sophie at home...tapi..hari2 pun sophie with me..aku praktikal bawak Sophie k...hahahhaa buat sesi with sophie besides me...24/7 she is with me..am blessed...penat woooOOO...hahahhaha... am not complaining but it is not an easy thing to do...i love her with all my heart..i cant imagine my life without her....precious...

bangun pagi tgk muka dia mcm tgk sunshine..she makes me smile..she makes me cry....she makes me strong and getting even stronger..she makes me angry...she everything la ..senang citerkan...hahahha...what ever it is i love my SOPHIE JASMINE very much...i would like to thanks this one person who gave me a chance to find happiness ....you know who you are..thanks babe...^_^

aku harap aku akan berjaya .....cant wait nak naik pentas amik scroll master lak...hehehhhe...next ear insyaALLAH the time will come...my HUBBY and SOPHIE will be with me during that time...membayangkan nyer saja dah buat aku happy...hehehehhe ok lah nak chow dulu.... sepatutnya aku cari material untuk project paper tapi tetiba mcm nak write something kat blog dulu.... ^_^

Have a great day guys!!!

4th month....

2011-04-16T07:24:00.006+08:00

i havent had the chance to write about my pregnancy in this blog. but i think this is about something that i would like to share with my fwen...yesterday me n hubby went for our routine baby check up. we were so excited because we are going to know the gender of our baby...

and for ur information my baby bum is getting boooolaaatt and bigger hehehhhe...eventhough am only 4 months pregnant...sbb nyer saya suka makan n saya sangat kecik..nampakla saya rendang, tembun dan chomel hahahaha....dan telah di warning oleh doktor supaya kurangkan makan makanan yg berlemak, berminyak, bergula ..nasi kalau boleh kurangkan..bfast nasi lemak, roti canai sila elakkan...no more heavy breakfast...kalau lapar eat something very lite and not so much..saya sudah over weight yer doktor kata... berat sebelum kawen adalah 48kg...sekarang berat saya sudah 60kg sudah meningkat sebanyak 12kg..and saya ader 5 bulan lagi to go..jadi sila lah jaga pemakanan ...takut nnt kena diabetis ...huhuuhuuhuhuuhuuhuu

masa wat ultrasound baby gerak heheheh n doktor said its baby gurl...^_^ ..apa perasaan i? i dont know how to explain it..its like a dejavu...smiling and sangat tak sangka am becoming a mom...motherhood is just around da corner...am having a baby gurl...hubby pun sangat happy eventhough dia sangat berharap its gonna be a boy..baby gurl pun still his baby...alhamdulillah...

so now i can start browsing barang baby gurl lah...wah!! hehehhehe shopping!!! baby will go shopping with bonda and daddy later...haaa mesti korang heran kan naper sorang bonda n sorg daddy...

well i want my children to call me bonda...becoz lain dari yang lain n i penah dengar this one particular teacher's son masa i jadi guru ganti kat padang tembak panggil mak dia bonda...n i jatuh cinta...sooooo cweeeeeeeeeetttttttt...n i berazam wanted my children to kol me bonda jugak..well for my husband dia suka daddy rasa macam glamour sket ...nak letak ayahnda panjang sangat kata nyer hahahhaa....rasa mcm keturunan diraja plak...maka daddy la..chomel kan...hahhha aku sumer nyer comel..

untuk tatapan my fwens i attached here da picture of new preggy me with baby in da making..^_^ ...

booolat kan saya..hubby kata am a beautiful monster...his lovely comeiii comeeiii wife hahahhaa...yela baru 4 bulan chomel la kan...and its our first baby ...haaa tgkla nnt2 kalau dh nak masuk 2,3...beautiful moster lagi ker? hahahahaha....lawak...

Precious present moment...

2011-03-18T09:32:00.007+08:00

Wah!!! i have f orgotten about this blog....haven't updated anything since got hitched...wuts new about me?
well as all of u guys know..i am now married my solemnization ceremony was held on 2nd January 2011 and luckily i ve got pregnant (bunting pelamin) ..alhamdulillah and just finished celebrating my wedding reception on 13 March 2011 together with our precious little 3 months baby in a making...^_^

Everything was so fast...but am glad that i have a really great, awesome hubby who loves me so much..and is soo caring ..saya sangat dimanjakan n i am glad that we found each other...

Frankly speaking it is not easy to cope with this new situation..because am doing my intership at JPW, still have to attend 2 more classes for this sem...preparing to proceed with my project paper...experiencing all the sickness during pregnancy...trying to becoming a good wife for my hubby...so many things to do.....and i am in a very fragile state of emotion most of the time..OMG!!..it is not easy right....hahahaha..

Victim here surely la my hubby..kesian dia...selalu kena buli dengan i...luckily he is very patience, very calm...and will always be there for me...ALHAMDULILLAH...well about the baby in da bun...went for check up yesterday..i saw the baby heart beat during scanning...and the baby moves.....its a miracle and it is our precious little life blooming inside me...cant wait to know the gender of the baby...

Hubby wants baby boy and wanted to name him RAYYAN hahahha..and for me...i dont mind whether it is a boy or gurl because u are my precious little one..and BONDA love u so much...eventhough u are making me experiencing me such difficulties to adjust myself with this whole new thing...am glad that i am not alone..i have you...and DADDY by my side....and i am happy....YA ALLAH ya tuhanku aku bersyukur ke atas rahmat yang kau berikan padaku...ALHAMDULILLAH...

Getting married

2010-12-12T06:17:00.002+08:00

Hey guys....

how's life? ^_^ hope u guys r doing great.....me? well am doing just fine and busy preparing for my solemnization events dis coming January...well again its like a dream sbb we only decided to nikah rite after we went for our kursus nikah on 4 & 5 december 2010 at Masjid TTDI...so we like have less then 1 monts to prepare for it hehehhee...lepas pegi kursus semangat nak kawen...

its a good sign right..alhamdulillah jodoh kami dh sampai mudah-mudahan ALLAH akan permudahkan perjalanan persediaan pernikahan kami hendak nya...AMIN...

Me & my fiance decided untuk bernikah pada 2nd January 2011 pada jam 11 pagi di masjid berhampiran dengan rumah ayahnda saya...alhamdulillah jurunikah dh dimaklumkan..and now we are bz with all the pendaftaran pernikahan bg pihak bakal suami dan bakal isteri...ujian HIV dh pun dibuat..tgh tunggu borang my en tunang then baru i boleh settle kan mine...now i know betapa hectic & leceh nyer nak nikah sekarang..bnyk btol borang nak kena isi...n panjang btol prosedur perkahwinan nie yer...dasat2....paper pun alhamdullillah walaupun ia menjengkelkan bak kata my en tunang...hahahhaa....

baju untuk nikah dh pun dihantar untuk tempahan ..tailor man kajang....deposit baju nikah dh dibayar...photographer dh pun ada we decided to take my en tunang nyer fwen QZ photography we got discount for that hehehehe...best price hope all da pictures will turn out to be nice....deposit photographer dh diberi....n best part of all rantai untuk upacara batal air sembahyang dah pun dibeli a very sweet simple necklace from HABIB Jewel...dipilih oleh my en tunang and am happy with what he choose....make up i ll ask my sister BELLA to make up me again but this time i ll make sure tak terlalu putih mcm masa tunang hehehehe....sbb nak save budget nyer pasal...n hantaran serta mini dais untuk nikah of course akan direka khas oleh my big lil sister julie haslina tema merah & putih....makan n khemah akan diuruskan oleh my ayahnda....deposit dah bagi...

jadi yang tinggal adalah upacara menghabiskan duit untuk barang hantaran ...iaitu SHOPPING!!! hahhahaha...i loike dat....alhamdulillah tuhan dh murahkan rezeki kami dan insyaallah semua nyer akan berjalan dengan lancar....dh nak jadi bini org dh aku nih....pembukaan tahun baru yang menarik dengan azam dan tanggunjawab baru...cayalah!! ^_^

i love my en tunang becoz he makes me happy....and i am sure i make him happy tooo....thanks ALLAH.....

p/s: majlis bersanding kita org akan dilangsung kan lambat sikit cuti sekolah bulan 3...19 march 2011 jadi nantikan kad kawen dari saya yer....TUNGGUUUUUUU.........

Bride: A woman with a fine prospect of happiness behind her. Ambrose Bierce

i am just being me...

2010-10-25T08:24:00.002+08:00

i am me..who like to wake up early in a morning and would very much enjoy breakfast roti telor with kari ikan & teh tarik or maybe nasi lemak with kerang...with da love ones, family and fwens...spending quality time together catching up..chit chatting...sharing lousy jokes and laugh like ada aku kesah pasal org lain..^_^ jadi buat hal ko...hahhaha...

i am me...who have forgiven all those crazy maniac who doesnt know how to appreciate me....i dont care anymore ....Tuhan akan beri pembalasan yang setimpal pada kamu....so All da best to u...peace no war!! ahaks!!

i am me...who like to dance on my own when i feel like dancing...la la la la .....

i am me...who sometimes could be really super extra sensitives about life...what u said could struck me & my tears will never fail to fall....-_- emo...

i am me....the stubborn little monster that try to adapt and adjust herself in her new little world....

i would like to change i am me...for good....but it takes two to tango.....

so please have some patience with me....lets do this together.....live our life in dis present and lets get ready for the future.....it's a done deal!! mmmmwaaaaah!!!

Mind blowing... breath taking holiday ...@ KRABI

2010-10-14T07:52:00.010+08:00

went for a short holiday to KRABI from 25/9/2010 - 28/9/2010 with my big lil sister crazy!! awesome!! chubawamba!! happenning!!!! fwen....hahahhaaa.....they r sooo fun to be with and i love them soooo much....owh mereka ini terdiri daripada mengikut turutan alphabetical order Aaron, Julie( my big lil sis), Sara,Seth,Shasha and Zack....mereka ini termasuk aku kini dikenali sebagai Travel Junkies....whereby we are looking forward for more trips tooo all da best beaches in da world....asia dulu la kot hehehehe.....our next trip for next year would be BALI....yeay!!!

this get away holiday tersangat la best!! KRABI nyer island perh wa cakap sama lu pantai dia sangat crystal clear water...pasir putih giler....so in love with KRABI.....honeymoon couple mmg jer akan menikmati percutian nih dengan tenang....rilex....kurang kesibukan kota....maybe sbb time kita org pegi nih off peak season maka rasa sangat rilex la.....tapi lau pegi ti dec maybe sangat hectic....

wutever it is....there's gonna be more trip like dis in da future....^_^..

enjoy the pictures u guys.....travel junkies!!! miss u guys....

Wedding dress design...

2010-08-20T07:15:00.009+08:00

Since am going to Jakarta today and be spending my time with my fiance...we have decided to hunt for several things for our wedding...we would like to check out on wedding card, doorgift for VIP, accessories, and maybe checking out our wedding band there..tapi i dh ada 2 cincin maybe i nak necklace or bracelet...and most important thing would be our reception attire..my wedding dress..i am still not sure whether to custom made it ..or just rent it...tapi kalau ikot kan hati i want my own wedding dress...and i hv been browsing through da internet and came across several design dat i like and maybe would find da material from Jakarta, since there lagi cheaper kan...i dh jumpa tailor but still not sure dia leh buat ker tak..sbb dia tgh bz siapkan tempahan for hari raya right now...he is a lecturer in POLI and teaching fashion...he asked me to search for da design that i like and send da picture to him later on...before i do dat i would like to share some wedding solemnization dress and reception dress that i like with u guys...for nikah kain nya sudah dibeli jadi dat one settled oredy....^_^...

lets start with design baju nikah dat i adore...

design by SYOMIR IZWA..

Wedding dress...by PRESTIGE INUR (Jakarta) & SYOMIR IZWA

p/s: sedikit pening sbb mcm sumer lawa2....hehehhehe....perempuan biasalah kan rambang mata....

Lost focus...

2010-08-13T07:13:00.003+08:00

after my engagement i seem to hv lost my focus on my study...which i dont like it...becoz i never been like dis before...am really into study and i love to study....now i hv few piles of assignments and presenatation dat need my attention...and i need to focus on it...everytime i plan to do my work..i ll end up thinking and planning about my wedding...i dont want to be so excited..my wedding will be my priority but i need to focus and complete my tasks oso...Oh god do help me...give strength and patience in handling all dis..my final examination will be held around 2nd week of november..and my wedding will be held on 2nd week of december...i dont like distraction and lately i am soooo lazy in doing my work..i tend procrastinate.....dis is soooo bad i need to prepare everything early....

the reason i become like dia most probably because am worried about the nikah procedure which is still not in progress because eki is at jakarta and there is nothing that can be done yet...am a bit worried because da nikah procedure seems to be tedious....one of my fwen told me dat i need to settle da documenation part of nikah 1st then ...i can proceed with planning....but how can i do that...eki will only be back maybe around october because he cant apply any leave yet now....urghhhh!!! to discuss dis thing with eki oso he dont have time he is soo bz with his report and networking analysis, pity him..he has to work till late night with less rest even when he has arrived at da guest house he still need to finish up his work until 2 or 3 o'clock...preparing everything for da next day meeting.. i dont have any heart to disturb him yet...not yet.....because he is doing dat for us...so if he can sacrifice i need to be a little bit patient right...i ll be going to Jakarta later to meet his sister and brother there...and we r going to survey a few things that is needed for our wedding later..because it is cheaper there compared to KL...and hopefully we can really discuss about da matter...

am in a dilemma...i hope god will make it a little bit easy for me and us so that we can face everything without any critical difficulties and we would be able to handle everything and find an immediate solution for all the problem that will arise later...now i need to start early in doing my presentation and assignments .....when i have time i can plan for my wedding....i need to prioritize.. i dont want too loose any precious moment in my life ......my study is important to me i dont want anything to effect my CGPA..and my wedding with eki is also important to me and us....both are my future and i dont want to regret in loosing any off it due to my uncertainty of wut need to be done first in order to achieve success and happiness....please julie dont lost focus...guys if u can give me some suggestion and recommendation i would very much appreciate it...

Am engaged paRT 2..

2010-08-11T22:03:00.006+08:00

Family moment...

my family and my extended family soon to be...

Best Fwens Forever moment....

Diva moment....

from right: my cuzzy fifie, sara and my big lil sister ...

ader jer lagi gambar yg nak di upload tapi mcm sangat lembap kan ...susah giler neh....its ok just enjoy da pictures k....

Am engaged...^_^

2010-08-10T17:45:00.015+08:00

8/8/2010 was da greatest day of my life... am ENGAGED!! it was like a dream...a dream dat finally come true...ALHAMDULILLAH....i woke up really early dat morning at 4 because am soo nervous....because i never met any of eki's family members...and i was soo worried about da ceremony it self....everything went well my dad and da rest of my arwah mom's family were bonded ...i like da scenario they were bonding like there was no grudge no hates...da effort shown by them during dis ceremony makes me appreciate them more..they knew dis ceremony is important for me and they want me to be happy... am suprised actually hehehhehe...and most of my best fwens were there from secondary, degree and my collegues from kuching and PD oso came...

da best part was my fiance's family ( cewah dh boleh panggil fiance ahahaaha) arrived early because they were from kuantan......so they lepak 1st before they bertandang sharp at 2pm...and everything happen so fast....i dah tak leh nak duduk diam while they were discussing about da date and everything....me upstairs tak senang duduk feeling sooo nervous sangat lawak lah my best fwen notice dat ....kelakar sangat...kejap bangun..kejap duduk....kaki bergoyang tak leh diam...kecut peyot....nak terkencing..nak terberak ....rasa nausea pun ader hahhhaa....

despite of all those feeling i am so grateful now dats everything went so well ..i love everything about my engagement ceremony...it was like wut i ve ever dreamt of before.....simple and sweeet...like marshmellow...and our solemnization day will be held on 18/12/2010 and our reception will be on 19/12/2010 ..INSYAALLAH... ^_^

now i would like to share some precious moment captured during my engagement day with u guys out there...enjoy!!!

make up moment by BELLA my sister 2nd mom daughter...

pelamin moment created by my big lil sister Julie Haslina...

tudung moment created by me....

my ayu moment..haha....

my crazy moment.....

tepon moment...

THE MOMENT....

US moment....

p/s: will post few more moment of my engagement ceremony ....sabar yer kenkawan...

FreAKing Out!!!

2010-08-02T07:26:00.003+08:00

Guys can i ask u guys something..is it normal when da E-day is just around da corner everything seems like so scary NOW...about all da things...like am freaking out when the tailor who doing my baju tunang called a week before my engagement day saying that she misplaced the measurement for my baju....OMG!! i was like WTF!!! i ve sent da kain early JULY ok....haiyak!! luckily my baju for my E-day dah siap.. i loike it so much!!!! hehehehe yeay!!...cant wait to wear it....

everytime when am thinking about da ceromony i got da feeling of something inside my stomach like haiya!! dont know la..am soo nervous...i do look damn COOL like everthing under control but only GOD knows hehhehee...i am a PERFECTIONIST i think dat is why am freaking out.. i like to have control on every single thing ....i like it when everything happen accordingly up to my expectation but when it comes to this kind of thing i need to make an acception right...dis is making me damnnn nervous......hahhahaha...because i can plan ....but i do not have control for the flow of the ceremony...all da scary tot of what if dis happen ..what if that happen....all the what if questions came across my mind and keep on bugging me.....Eki told me everything is gonna be fine....INSYAALLAH....i dont have to be worry so much....things will be fine....

You can say dat it not u who hv to go through it....u have just to be there right after everything and foe your side pun i yang prepare kan ..CHET!! main tipu kan hahahhaha.....boleh la act real COOL like dat....huhuuhu....i hope everything will be fine....i will pray hard....Ya ALLAH mudah-mudahan majlis kami akan berjalan dengan lancar dan mendapat keberkatan dari mu ya ALLAH.....AMIN...

UpDatING blog TEMPLATE...

2010-07-30T15:54:00.003+08:00

Aku mcm jeles kan bila kenkawan start updating their blog..aku pun haruslah berwajah baru jugak kan...hehehehehe...tapi kena ada trademark kasut tu ....i loike it...yeay!!!

Blooming precious...

2010-07-17T07:50:00.003+08:00

Am like dreaming...i never imagine dat am going to experience dis..it is very exciting ...and am enjoying every moment of da excitement, feel like wanna jump!! jump!!! golek!! golek!! and laugh..laugh some more and smile all da time hahahha....in another 22 days am getting engage....going to be engaged to Mr. Ekiadeka Putera B. Abbas.....on 8/8/2010...ambik berkat sebelum puasa hehehhe..i ve just met him actually but da chemistry dat we have made us decide to take da chance to be together and build up a family..everything happen so fast....damn fast!! hehheehehhe...

u want to know details i ll let u know after 8/8/2010...i ll reveal all...da most important thing kenkawan mesti nak tau berapa umur dia kan...sbb my all my x bf before dis kecuali masa degree are all younger than me...but dis time around he is older than me..32 years old, very matured, caring, sweet...crazy......sangat manja and he spoiled me...aha!! dats da most important part...no lah dats da bonus part...kekekeke....i masih dalam proses planning for da engagement..everything is in a very good progress...cincin dh beli...kain utk nikah sudah...perfume sudah..hantaran n tema for both side dh decide..mine would be white and pink...eki nyer white and baby blue...

dia akan hantar 7 dulang hantaran berbalas 9 dulang hantaran dari pihak i...baju pun dh hantar tempah ujung bulan nie insyaallah siap..mini pelamin akan dibuat oleh my ucu and mysis..hantaran pun my sister yg akan buat for both side i nak fresh flower..masak la dia kena wat 16 hantaran..then make up i suh adik i belah mak tiri make up kan ...di pandai make up...photographer my cuzin akan incharged...doorgift my auntie and makngah akan sponsor...hri nie nak pg discuss ngan my dad about makanan n khemah...so far around 55% lah progress nyer...by next week i akan officially invite fwens and family datang for da engagement....

i have to do everything by myself...eki takder kat malaysia ..dia baru dapat keje kat jakarta...tapi nasib baik ada kawan2..and family members yg tolong and bg support..thank u so much.....

yeay!!! i nak bertunang.....n lau ader rezeki dan diizinkan tuhan insyaallah ijab kabul ujung tahun..tak sabar nyer...hahhahahha...

P/S: Kenkawan doakan yer utk saya...wish me all da best untuk menghadapi segala cabaran yg akan mendatang ini.............wink!! wink!! Mr.Ekiadeka Putera b Abbas i love u so much!!! thanks for making me the happiest chomel gurl on earth hahahahhaa...jump!! jump!!! golek!!! golek!!! smiling sampai ke telinga.........

Moment~

2010-06-16T19:21:00.005+08:00

It ends easily but i wont fade away as easily as u wish it would be...

The pain will stops & the wound will heals...but the scar will always remain there...
WHICH will always be there to remind u about the moment~
sucks......

Back To SquAre One

2010-06-15T23:50:00.008+08:00

i JUST got back from kuching after spending my 4 precious days there with my BFF jaNe John..Thanks jane for everything really appreciate it..miss u already..had fun with her doing all d things dat we both usually dId when we were still working there at Kuching...ALOT of new shocking discovery has been exposed..which during my last day there was ..am.... hurmmm..rite now i dont know how to say it and how to describe my feeling....

It is a mixture of all emotions dat expressed and potrayed a total dissapointment, it's a disaster.....i just dont believe wut i heard....i just dont believe that u r actually da meanest, heartless, idiot dumbass...i just cant believe it!! that u betray everything that u hv said and i believe that all my assumptions were right all dis while from da start...i should hv follow my instinct...my instinct wont lie and it will always be true to me..blame it on my myself hahha..padan muka...

of all da women on dis entire universe u choose her...u love her? or should i say u lust her? well when u want it u will get it from her right....suka kan... anywhere u want it to be ..sooooOOO have fun then..hopefully she will changed and really can let go her past one day and u gonna be da one for her......she da cold hearted bitch who is desperate for attention from all da guys dat she can lay her hands on and u dont mind bout it..perfect match u guys are meant for each other.so all da best to u...

man really likes bitch kan..HAIYA!! why yer? they know how to work it OUT..all inside and OUT...

last nite i end up experincing again da PMS moment which made me feel like a LOSER and am in hell ..mcm bangang jer all tears can easily keluar witout permission they just know it kan when time comes they will make their special appearance and make u feel miserable ...but da very next morning i know dat am just being emotional... and i actually know that i can face everything and anything IN FRONT of me easily...wink!! wink!! at least am not married to him yet...nak sedapkan rasa hati kan...but am glad it doesnt happen...if not sure dh divorce hehehhe...

so now am good to go....i am done with all dis crap which has been bothering me for quite sometime..and am gonna say good bye to all dis shit..~THE END~

now am back to square one....

Make up

2010-05-19T21:56:00.006+08:00

Beauty is something that is subjective...for me beauty can be defined through something that can be created, adjusted, covered and blended....it's applicable but not everyone can do it...I have encounter a new hobby nowdays..during my school days in primary and secondary school even up until my matriculation years...i can be considered as "buta fashion" and i am not up to date kind of person..never wear any make up and i dont fancy feminity..i only use bedak johnson and jonhson jer kot as far as i could remember..i am not feminin at all..trust me my sense of fashion was totally out dated and sucks hahahha...i envy those who are beautiful and have a good sense in fashion ..

Back then i am not confident with my apprearance ...i dont care about it...but later on there is a slight changed..it is maybe because of the influnce from my fwens ...they look good and seems to be more confident when they apply make up...and i myself start trying and experimenting we exchanged tips, lipstick and mascara, even blusher (nurul was the one who has everything and i ....not only me i believe...we..hahhaha always borrowed her make up )...i bought jonhson and johnson compact powder but i still use white one instead of natural color...i wore red lipstick or sometimes brown...and dats it....when i look back at d old pictures i will surely laugh like hell ..i looked so fierce ...but as time past by i read alot about make up..the basic necessity in applying make and etc...as i start working..i was like soooo crazy in buying all kind of make up supplies dat i can get in the market..trial and error..the 1st expensive make up ever dat i bought was estee lauder make up set worth RM600 ...there goes my money hahahha....but its ok it was my first salary of 3 months tunggakkan so no big deal hehehhe...

As time past by i able to learn 2 or more make up tricks and tips..i like natural make up application...with a little touch up of highlite and bronzer WALAH!! my face GLOW.. Some of my family members start to ask me to make up for them and my BFF asked me to make up her, for her engagement.. i was nervous and flattered ...since then i told myself dat one day i would like to be a professional..and now since i have plenty of time...

I plan to attend a make up worksyop in JAKARTA..i know i can do it here in KL...i ve search for few available worksyop one of it conducted by IAN SHAM one of the well established malaysian make up artist...2 days worksyop will cost me about RM500-RM600 only...

Actually i want to get away for vacation so might as well i just go straight to JAKARTA rite...hehehe and i can really learn good make up tips and tricks from there...u guys know rite how beautiful indonesian women can be when their make up artist make up them...even i can fall in love with them...hey..hey dont get me wrong i am not lesbian...i just love beauty OK..hahaha..

Now i am so into BOBBI BROWN..i ve bought few basic BOBBI BROWN make up kit and supplies and i bought BOBBI BROWN makeup Manual ..an i am in a quest to master the skill of make up...wish me luck guys....i just want to try out....

My uncle is pursuing his business in dis wedding event management kind of thing..he loves pelamin so much..my sister is into hantaran thing..and becoming a wedding planner for her fwen who is gonna get married next month...and me i like make up ....i can be their make up artist hehehhehe....wasnt it great...^_^

this picture was taken during my cousin engagement early APRIL..

This one was during my BFF engagement i think it was in 2008 i believe...i did d hair also penat tuh...hehehehehe...enjoy it guys....

tantek tak? tantek kan.....sgt sweet...

P/S: if u guys ader any contact no about any make up worksyop do let me know k....even any interesting website about make up dat u guys know i am hoping dat u guys can share with me also..lots of love ~JULES~

u know wut...

2010-05-17T13:12:00.003+08:00

i know i ve change alot..i know dat i am not like before..its something dat i choose to be rite now..i know people concerned about me so much but please dont feel sorry for me..because when you guys do dat it really hurts...i know ur intention is good and because u guys care about me i dont have doubt bout it..but it doesnt make me feel better..so please stop and let me do wut ever i want to do....i just want to be MYSELF rite now this is me ..have some respect please...if u want to talk about me behind my back go ahead.. i dont care because it's my LIFE...not urs....
care about ur own LIFE la dude...not others....WTF!!! u dont really know wut happen to me so dont judge n dont pretend like u r great..u r happy, superior OR better than me because ur r obviously not O.K....and u know wuts missing in ur LIFE...fix urs first .....duhhhhh!!!!

i wont...

2010-05-17T12:49:00.003+08:00

SOME DAY YOU WILL CRY FOR ME ;
like i cried for you...
SOMEDAY YOU WILL MISS ME;
like i missed you...
SOMEDAY YOU WILL NEED ME;
like i needed you...
SOMEDAY YOU WILL LOVE ME;
but i wont love you anymore.........

DEJAVU...

2010-05-12T20:01:00.005+08:00

dah terlalu lama since last post...way back when i am still with him...we break off in a good way after a real devastating moment between me and him...am in pain and he was lost...i was hoping that things would be like before but after spending my time with him for about 2 weeks i realized he was not meant for me anymore...we fought, we cursed, we hated each other so much at that time...when am with him i felt lonely..because he was not with me..he is in his own world the more i tried the more complicated things were...

when i decided to move on, i loose him...and am in pain...i still remember i ve decided to let him go when he sent me his last FB mail ...and i realized it is time for me to let him fly away...we did not communicate, we just knew we should end it..so it ends without say...it just END..i try to be strong but i cried the whole night thinking why does dis have to happen to me again ....and again...and again...i am just tired with all dis...

now it has been 2 months ..i felt sad n missing him like crazy..i did acknowledge him in his FB..do chat with him once or twice asking how he was but later on i realized that he is not mine anymore so i tried to hold everything back, all da feeling and emotion need to be ended A.S.A.P.....so i decided to block his FB..because i dont want to know what is happening to him..i dont want to know with who he is now..i just dont want to care...i changed my hp no...i force myself to forget him...because he hurts me..i harap tuhan akan beri pembalasan yang setimpal dekat dia...i taknak simpan dendam, itu urusan dia dengan tuhan...only god knows apa yg dia dh buat kat i...

i am strong ...i know but all da memories dat i hAD when am with him keep on bugging me.. i would like to erase it but i cant..iT will takes time and i wish ada software yg boleh delete unwanted memories dalam brain ni ha...i wish.....

BUT STILL i cant lie ..i cant avoid this feeling...and i cant deny...i still love him ....i am ....he is still in my heart.. i realize it is pathetic but that is what i feel.....we had something before and i cant just erase u that easy from my mind and my heart.....

ANUGERAH PERKHIDMATAN CEMERLANG...

2009-06-18T22:01:00.009+08:00

ALHAMDULILLAH...syukur...dats all dat i can say...am smiling in my heart and feel very thankful with da gift dats ALLAH gave me...iTS a MARVELOUS year for me...thankS to everyone ....who trust me and who appreciate my work and my enthusiasm in the thing dat i work on...i received a pierre cardin ball pen....cert.....and u know wut rite....hehehe... during da ceremony i was glad to meet some old fwens...Norsaliza Osman n Sharifah Fadiah...i cried when i saw za....lama giler tak jumpa dia...she never change....still da same ...she has 2 great sons and a loving husband teaching at Politeknik Dungun, While pah still not married sama lah kita kan hehehhehhe....Pah, selalu jer jumpa usually masa course la....she is working at Politeknik Merlimau Melaka...

WE R GOVERMENT'S PROPERTy....HAHHAHAHA ..wutever it is aM Glad to be Malaysian....and am done with working..sila cepat sikit i want to study plak...guys come n join me. am waiting for u guys...did i told u guys am going to further my study in guidance and counseling yer...wanna be a councelor plak...boleh? hehehe I know i can be what ever i wanna be...with da will and determination i know i can succeed..AMIN..

Babies...

2009-06-18T21:37:00.004+08:00

These are some pictures taken while am at Perlis attending my QA course for a month and i got da chance to meet da new born baby ...anis's precious Harraz Alfi Hasrul Nizam.....he is so small and am afraid to hold him in my arms..too fragile and so oooooo cute....so sepet ....exactly like his momcute tak kaki dia....hehehhee i did also manage to meet nurul's precious Afeef Aiman Mohd Noor Azahari...she was at Pd without any notice suddenly she called and we meet up and went for minum2...and her precious was sleeping at dat time...he is another sweet baby.....cute......like his mom also....
tido jer dia..senyap syok auntie julie dodoi kan ae..hehehehe...

Being A tEAChER...

2009-06-18T21:00:00.004+08:00

I ve been away from this blog for quite sometimes...been bz...bz avoiding myself from thinking about work..i hate working...and i hate waiting for da offer letter from upm to arrive...haiya manyak lambat ow.....my heart is not into teaching anymore i want to rest and gain my soul dat hv been hiding, i dont know where da hell it is!!!..i need to search for it...

Once upon a time..teaching is something dat make me alive.. i will always be excited and looking forward to evacuate all da knowledge that i have in my brain.. i put my heart into it 110%..i want to share everything..i want to be a TEACHER...and am proud to be one. but now after a few years everything seems to lessen the interest decrease...da aura decline....da soul even worst....decease.......i am tired of it....pity right wut happen to me? am tired with those who does not appreciate knowledge..it's not dat easy to gain it...u have to work smart and put on ur best effort to be part of it....but they do not realize how much it is matter in LIFE....it's sickening...and i HATE it....

i KNow run away is not a good idea..but sometimes its the only way u can gain ur confidence and belief that u have built before...dats wut am doing.. I believe all my fwens out there feel da same like me right? well lets take a brake.....take a kit kat .....

Whats new about me?

2009-05-06T20:11:00.006+08:00

DEAR FwEN,

How are u guys? am at PERLIS dah almost 17 days am here at PAUH INN POLITEKNIK TUANKU SYED SIRAJUDDIN. FuH aku dah sangat penat dowh...bosan....and missing everything that i have back there at KL and PD...what am i doing here? well its a preparation for my master , the course is about RESEARCH METHODOLOGI for our thesis or project paper later...i learned ALOT!! Things that all the speakers learned in 2 years we learned it in 10 days...and today exam...we still need to learn about statistic this coming week our focus will be about statistic pulak CALCULATION WARGH!!! ingat tak yg kita blajar ngan DR. Arshad tu HHHHAAAAAAA yang tu la rasakan padan muka haku hehhehe...

imagine we sit listening for lecture from 8.30 until 4.30 everyday and ada nite class also sometime. Speaker told us that bnyk panca roba nak further study nie especially perkara berkaitan ngan supervisor kita later...aku dengar pun aku dh kecut perut kejap...offer letter pun blom dapat g..am waiting for the offer letter from UPM. Harap i will get in for julai intake. tak sanggup dh nak keje.. i need a new fresh air and environment. HELP!!! hEHEHEHE

talking about NEW..Congrats to NURUL and ANISS for their new baby boy...Funky mommas back in action with new kid. CAYUK!! and i pun dah ader NEW bf...sekali lagi hahhaha....entah bila betol2 nak lekat for good. i dont knowla. dia ajak tunang but i said wait until i finished with my master program and he will be in his 3rd years degree before he going to Australia we ll get married and i ll join him there ( mesti korang pelik degree? ha yer ...dia muda dari aku, wondering y org muda? well me myself pun dont know yg penting i love him) That what we have planned. its only a plan....i am hoping that we can make it. he ll be the one for me....Tapi dont knowla...sbb we dont know what really gonna happen in the future. Tapi my focus rite now nak smbg study dats all full time tak payah g keje hehhehehehhe.....

ok la i nak tdo...good nite...i miss u guys and for those who read this blog HAI....and Bye...kekekekekekke

goodbye Kuching...

2009-01-22T10:06:00.006+08:00

Well guys am counting days to be back to peninsular malaysia...really cant wait and at da same time i feel sad bcoz i ve been here for quite some time n am gonna miss KUCHING and all my fwens here....a very memorable things happen here n am happy at da last minute of my stay at Kuching i able to enjoy every second of my moment here... am gonna be really devastated later when am back at KL...y? nnt la i citer..its complicated sangat..

last week on thursday barang2 i yg kat kuching beserta my cute kelisa telah pun dihantar ke semenanjung menggunakan sea cargo...kita org proposed to pengarah utk antar kete using air cargo tetapi disebbkan pengarah kedekut dia tak luluskan....huhuhuhu jadi sekarang aku mmg patah kaki nak kemana-mana dah sgt susah nak dijadikan citer kete nest fwen aku kat sini pun masuk bengkel problem ngan belting dia lak...huhuuuhu sabar jelah..

rite now am enjoying every single moment of relaxing.....at my fwen place sbb umah aku dah kosong hahahah...here are few shots of pic taken masa proses mengemas barang dijalankan...

kelam kabut jugak la mengemas nyer sbb last minute dia bgtau....u guys know..of coz la u guys tak tau ahhahaha...aku nyer kasut jer dah 3 kotak kah3....terperanjat org yg pagking barang aku tuh..hari tu aku kira2 aku ader lebey kurang 70 collection of shoes.....selama 5 tahun aku kerja...tu lah hasil nyer itu pun ader yg aku dah terminate kan....ader yg dah rosak....

this is my only best fwen here at Kuching...dia tolong packing kan baju kurung ku 3 luggage sumer nyer...nasib bek dia ader.....

bilik tido n changing room aku dah jer macam tongkang pecah ....mana nak dibuang mana nak dibawak balik rasa semput masa nak mengemas nie....nie antara beg baju keje aku...baju lain aku letak dalam kotak jer..dah tak der beg nak letak...at da back tu my tv...ni aku nyer sofa yang dah berjaya dibalut....harap ok la sofa aku nie...

nie 1/4 barang aku ...jumlah semua item yg dihantar balik ke semenanjung ader lah 43 item..manyak kan...

sumer ni hangkut bawak balik ...kecuali lemari t.v tu...dia dah melendut kena beli baru t.v aku berat sangat.. masa time aku beli 5 tahun lepas takder flat screen...lau ader lama dah aku beli tak payah nak mengangkut berat sangat..

kat belakang aku tu lemari dapur..sebelah aku ..aku nyer wash machine n no 42 tu tilam aku..

clear dah umah aku...naseb bek ader kawan tolong...thanks jane...

Jadi sekarang nie aku tunggu masa jer lagi nak pulang ke KL..28 nie aku balik KL...31st aku balik PD tapi aku rasa aku lik awal sket kot ke PD...Maybe aku start awal gak lau tak 2nd February aku start keje tgk mcm mana dulu tunggu kete aku sampai senang sket aku nak gerak kesana nnt....aku ader gak rasa nervous sebab new environment kan risau gak aku. tapi lau aku leh suvive kat KUCHING takkan kat PD aku tak pat nak survive kan hehehehe...its an easy matter jer...hopefully...u guys doakan aku ok nnt k...:)

Going back To KuchinG

2009-01-04T10:31:00.006+08:00

Am GOing back to Kuching today, yesterday went to pd cari rumah...since i want to rent alone..makngah asked me to find an apartment..banyak jugak la apartment yg aku dah pegi tapi PD aku rasa org2 nyer kureng berminat ngan apartment..apartment khas untuk holiday mmg banyak daily rent. Monthly a little bit expensive....aku g tgk kat glory beach resort,sunshine bay resort...cocobay resort depan poly,marina resort.....n pd perdana condo...pd perdana nie aku tgk a few unit of the apartments,yg ader lift tu mengerikan sket sbb mmg kurang org n tpt dia tak baper terjaga tapi apartment dia besar...then aku tgk yg 5 tkt jer condo dia aku berkenan dgn apartment 2 bilik dia sangat sesuai ngan jiwa aku hehehehe....tapi dowg sewa fully furnished...rm500...

aku suruh la major zul tu...carikan rumah kosong utk aku sbb aku nak bwk barang aku dari kuching....sangat xcited nak pindah..esok bnyk keje aku nak wat..aku nak list down barang utk bwk balik utk wat quotation, nak pg bank amik green card kete aku..nak hantar puspakom tok check...nak wat surat tok bank..tukar alamat...astro..WAH!! boleh pening gue..tapi paper pun rumah sewa tu penting nanti aku nak dok mana hahahahhaa....

lupa laks nak ucap terima kasih kat Nas and Suzie sbb suggest kan beberapa tpt yg sesuai utk aku tgk rumah ...nnt aku akan selalu lah aku jumpa kenkawan tak susah lagi la nak jumpa korg..naik kete terus pegi kalau tak busy..hehehehhe....

ok aku nak pack barang nie...balik kuching malam nie flite kol 7.40 pm.....chow!!

p/s: azam baru nak selalu update blog hahahahha.....cAYUK JULes!!!

Good news guys....

2009-01-01T10:16:00.002+08:00

Kepada kenkawan seperjuangan ku....aku dengan lafaz bismillah dengan rasmi nya mengumumkan AKU DAPAT pindah ke POLITEKNIK PORT DICKSON. Akan dengan rasmi nyer pulang ke Semenanjung Malaysia by February.....Yeay!!! Dapat la aku melawat kenkawan sekelian bila ader masa kelak k...Miss u Guys!!!!

GOOD NEWS...

2008-11-18T11:27:00.002+08:00

DEAR FRIENDS....

I VE BEEN BZ AND I VE READ MOST OF U GUYS NYER BLOG..MISS U GUYS SO MUCH..BNYK GILER AKU KETINGGALAN. TAPI GLAD GOT THE CHANCE TO REDEEM BENDA YG I DAH TERLEPAS...I GOT GOOD NEWS...BUKAN...BUKAN...BUKAN AKU NAK KAWEN..BLOM LAGI..HEHEHEHE..HARI TU AKU HANTAR APPLICATION UTK SAMBUNG MASTER N AKU APPLY BIASISWA KPTM. WISH ME ALL DA BEST SBB AKU SALAH SEORG YG SELECTED UTK PERGI INTERVIEW...DOAKAN SEMOGA AKU ADA REZEKI UTK SAMBUNG BELAJAR K... NERVOUS AKU...TAPI TAK TAU LAGI BILER INTERVIEW TU PEGAWAI LATIHAN AKU CAKAP DALAM WAKTU TERDEKAT NIE..
AKU SANGAT BZ SKANG TAPI NNT AKU UPDATE AKU NYER BLOG K....LOVE U GUYS ALOT!!!!

Tagged by suzie

2008-10-08T11:32:00.004+08:00

My top 10 most favourite food:

1. LAKSA PENANG
2. SARDIN N TELUR DADAR
3. MASAK LEMAK CILI API ( AYAM, IKAN, DAGING,SIPIT SEDUT & TELUR)
4. IKAN KELI MASAK SAMBAL CILI API HIJAU- pERGH...terliur kena g cari pas nie
5. SUMER JENIS SUP
6. SUMER JENIS FAST FOOD
7. LONTONG
8. MAGGIE ......wajib tuh
9.CHAR KUEH TEOW
10.SPEGHETTI
11. SUMER JENIS MAKANAN YANG SEDAP DIMAKAN KAT DALAM DUNIA NIE ...

10 things I love to do:

1. SLEEPING
2. WORKING
3. SWIMMING
4. EATING
5. SHOPPING
6. SMSING
7. COOKING
8. DATING
9. RACING
10. TALKING

5 types of guy I Adore:

1. GOOD LOOKING - A must!!
2. CARING
3. HONEST
4. LOVING
5. ROMANTIC

5 things I love doing when Im happy:

1. WHEN AM HAPPY I LIKE TO SMILE
2. I WILL SING
3. I WILL LAUGH
4. I WILL EAT ALOT
5.I WILL TALK ALOT

10 Ways to win my heart:

1. BE YOUSELF
2. I LOVE JOKES....funny one uh...
3. BE THERE WHEN I NEED YOU
4. LOVE ME SINCERELY
5. DONT BE JUDGEMENTAL
6. SUPPORTIVE
7. SUPRISE WOULD BE GREAT ONCE IN A WHILE
8.REMEMBERING IMPORTANT DATES WOULD BE SWEET
9. BUY THINGS FOR ME...EVEN ONLY A 10 CENT GULA2 FROM KEDAI MAMAK hehehe..
10. HONEST.......

5 things I wish it could be:

1. KAYA RAYA
2. HAVE MY OWN SHOPPING COMPLEX..hahaha
3. CHILDREN
4. PERFORM UMRAH AND HAJ
5. GATHERING WITH MY OLD FWENS AND ALL MY FAMILY MEMBERS

my top 10-recently most addicted song:

ALAMAK NAMA LAGU TAK INGAT....hehehe
paling addicted lagu raya..sangat addicted b4 balik kl...lagu BALIK KAMPUNG tiap2 hari pasang dengar kt ofis n dalam kete..semangat....hehehe..

Raya ..oh raya....

2008-10-08T10:34:00.008+08:00

Nie adalah antara ragam nyer raya aku start raya pertama sampai raya ke lima la lebey kurang...malam raya aku kat kajang sbb pagi raya solat hari raya kat masjid Saujana Impian Kajang with my makngah,adik n ucu seisi keluarga....lepas tu tros g melawat kubur....lepas zohor baru start beraya....aku ader satu citer lawak sepatut nyer raya nie aku pakai baju sama pattern ngan adik aku tapi baju aku tertinggal kat kedai bl tudung b4 raya n aku tak perasan malam b4 raya baru aku perasan....hahhahaha jadi terpaksa lah aku pakai baju raya kaler lain...utk pengetahuan korang bj raya aku masih selamat...hehehe

aku kan tak der kg..berangan la kenkonon hahahha..nie lepas semayang raya bersiap nak balik umah kat wangsa maju..nurul aku dh tak dok kemensah dah aku kat villa wangsa mas plak..lagi best tpt dia..ucu aku suh dok umah situ lak....
gambar aku besama anak2 ucu aku....
ucu, maksu n family..purple theme tahun nie...
me n yaya..
nie masa raya kedua hahahha...lepas g umah nek ngah n nek ayang aku kita owg g great eastern mall menyempat lagi kan..aku g shopping cadar bilik aku...kat kl aku mmg kurang cadar asik pakai yg sama jer..makngah aku lak sibuk nak g tgk sandle clark...jadi pg la temankan dia...kasut raya tak sempat nak beli kui..kui..kui...
sempat lagi aku posing kat konon2 umah kg kat great eastern mall with my youngest lil sis belah mak satu lagi....aqilah nama nyer... dia tido umah villa...nilah umah kg aku...hehhehehekat GREAT EASTERN MALL.

Nie masa raya ke lima...hah lepas raya umah nenek muda aku kat kg baru..kita owg g makan kat ampang yong tau foo....lapar nyer pasal lepas penat g shopping kat pavillion..
shopping lepas raya ..aku tak sempat nak bershopping sblm raya..lepas raya baru dpt shopping...baju n handbag raya aku beli handbag sembonia....nak beli handbag guess tapi mahal sgt rm469 huhuuh tak mampu....

raya kat umah nenek muda....hehehehe...bawah me with my sister....

tu lah ragam raya aku ..gambo lintang pukang nak susun balik dah susah malas aku...enjoys...aku nak reply tag si suzie plak pas nie..:)

Berbuka poce 2008 family time

2008-10-08T10:21:00.002+08:00

Keesokkan hari nyer aku berbuka dengan family member aku plak kat BORA-BORA OMBAK dkt AMPANG SPORT PLANET...nie masa kita owg baru lepas abis berbuka gambo tak berapa clear....huhuhuhu sedey nyer....kita org makan buffet 1 kepala 55 hengget....memasing bayor sendiri hahahahhaa....sedap ah sangat puas hati makanan dia...meja kita org panjang sensagt 22 meja .....
the rest of da family
me my cuz n my sis...
my maksu,ucu, me n my sis..
cuzin generation yg kecik2 hehehehe

KENKAWAN..

2008-08-28T11:45:00.005+08:00

nie laila's lounge masa perform dowg nyer band no 1 ...dowg perform 4 lagu

korg perasan tak gambo aku takder huhuhu tapi gambo nie ader kat kamera aku..terkilan aku apakan daya....

aku ngan nurul...masa nak balik biasala aku sedey jer sbb jumpa sekejap sgt...

sempat bergambar bersama nurul,me n ariff, aku tgh pelik naper nyer skema sgt bf aku tu duduk masa dlm komuter tgk gambo ni aku gelakkan dia hahahaha...

antara kenkawan baru yg aku jumpa masa kat seremban..yg pakai bj itam tu sgt familiar muka dia sampai skang aku dok pk dimana pernah aku jumpa dia...tak senang hati dibuek nyer.. hope dpt satu lagi peluang nak g gig mcm nie tp secara beramai2 ngan kenkawan...amin!

malam mini gathering ngan bonda n anis...kami masih sama...maintain chomel hehehee

me n anis....xsempat nak borak lama ...gossip best hehehe

diatas adalah antara kenangan yg dapat aku coretkan ngan kenkawan aku...yg lain tak berkesempatan nak jumpa....aku berharap sangat dapat berjumpa ngan kenkawan lain. apa gamak nyer cerita korang...

crazy me part 2...

2008-08-06T13:06:00.003+08:00

crazy me part 2 is all about perfume...dulu aku tak penah bl perfume mahal...bl yg murah jer tetapi setelah aku mula bekerja aku start collect perfume..n skang aku tgh aim satu perfume HYPNOSE LANCOME N INCANTO HEAVEN....bau dia telah berjaya memikat hati aku....da 1st perfume hasil gaji aku adalah tada...CK ETERNITY....n still in love with it..until now....aku ader MORGAN,CK EUPHORIA,DKNY,RALPH LAURAN,JPG, NINNA RICCI,TOMMY FOR BOY AND GIRL DAN BANYAK LAGI......aku balik slalu kat airport maka akan selalu lah ku tinjau2 perfume....dan sekira nya jatuh cinta akan ku beli ....CRAZY ME....

crazy me...

2008-08-06T09:27:00.006+08:00

nie aku bl kat sarawak...CHANNEL aka sarawak mari heheheh
ni aku beli kat NOSE ader 30% off...
nie VINCCI aku beli sbb aku dapat voucher vincci rm50.00 hengget sbb bday aku..
yang nie tak der brand aku suka kaler dia pun murah jugak...rm39.90
CARLO RINO xbf bagi for my birthday...huhuhhuhu

Nie handbag santai-santai lau time malas....aku kaut barang aaku masuk kan dalam karung nie hehehee..yang satu tu adik aku nyer aku cilok...
satu-satu nyer dinner bag aku...aku nie jarang nak ader dinner....sepanjang aku kat sini baru 2 dinner yg aku pergi...huhuhuhu

do u guys realize one thing we gurls..do love SHOPPING!! so much....handbag....perfume....cloth...most precious...SHOES........CRAZY ME....

these are all my handbags collection dari harga semurah 10.00 bl kat flea market ke yang paling mahal rege below rm300.00

sumer ader tanggungjawab memasing tapi mesti ader keadaan dimana kita nak manja kan diri kita kan....walaupun aku tak kawen lagi aku masih sara family aku n aku jugak ader bil2 kete,rumah,astro,air,letrik,tepon yang nak kena bayar kita sumer sama jer bg family duit lagi....beza nyer kemahuan.....kan..kan....hehhehehe.....

ni antara hanbag imitation yang aku beli ader yg d beli di danau kota dat purple coach....yg fendi tu bl kat mana padang besar....yg butterfly tu aku bl kat mana aek tak ingat dah hehehehe..yg konon ala guess tu aku beli kat serikin sarawak....n yg ceklet tu aku bl dr katalog LENO..
Yg esprit nie aku bl dh kat 6 bulan yg nie jgk aku dok pakai rege dia rm259.90 tapi sale ari tu 70% aku dapat rm59.90 aku ader card leh dpt 10% diskaun saper nak pinjam card esprit cakap k...aku ader card pun sbb aku suka suar jeans esprit.....

yang nie DKNY dibeli oleh pakcik ku kat SINGAPORE masa end of year wholesale tapi aku jarang nak pakai sbb aku bkenan yg adik aku nyer warna purple n kecik sket...org dh kasi jadi apa lagi amik jgn tak amik..bukan imitation ahaks!

nie adalah koleksi MNG aku..aku sangat suka mng..simple..jer...n chomel mcm aku ...purse coklat tu aku bl masa kat bandung dah 2 tahun aku pakai dah lusuh dah......dh terkoyak nak kena tukar baru dah....adik aku dh belikan 2 purse baru tok aku..hehehehe...yeay!!!

handbag hitam tu n dat black GUESS purse adalah dari duit gaji pertama aku....n dat pink GUESS handbag aku bl sebab Paris Hilton nyer collection kuar n aku berkenan..

nie all da collection from indonesia n singapore nyer handbag cheap n nice......cool.... i love handbag hehehhe..CRAZY ME..............

Pretending...

2008-08-06T08:45:00.003+08:00

Everyone was talking about pretending rasa nyer dalam sumer blong kenkawan the word pretending tu issue yg sangat hangat...so saya pun nak cakap about pretending jugak lah..i like da issue dat has been brought up by bonda...i myself honestly pernah pretending. y? well bcoz i dont want people to see me as weak...i am a very strong n tough person n i dont like people to look down on me i believe sumer org pun hv da same feeling rite. tak nak kalah ngan org lain tapi the sort of pretending dat we have been through bergantung jugak pada situation....

well before this when am with all da coursemate during the study years..honestly i am so rigid y?..bcoz am a kind of person who is stuck with conservatives kind of thinking.. y? sebab i cucu kesayangan nenek. sayang nenek jadi taknak hurt her..when i lost her its really devastated ...nak jaga hati n perasaan sumer org tua jadi pretendla i dont know what to do...tapi dalam hati sangat memberontak wish that i kat hv all da freedom like my fwens have.....i envy u guys....sbb i tak have da kind of feeling like u guys have... my family are all around me all da time....

now bila am all alone at kuching all by myself, i enjoy every single moment of the freedom dat i have....still i have to pretend y? again nak jaga hati family.....at kuching honestly speaking am not wearing any tudung lau i tak pg mengajar....am i being hipokrit well.....i just want to be myself after all da years pretending...but does dat harm anyone else? i dont think so tapi lau family tau mesti dowg sedih jadi we hv to pretend utk masih jaga hati mereka betul kan?....now i know how to respect privacy n pendirian masing2....i learned alot surely....sbb every tindakan yang dilakukan mesti ada sebab musabab nyer... its your life u can choose to be happy n u can choose to be miserable...bukan org yang observe u hv to go through with ur life.

since i was small, living with my father is not something dat i enjoy...most of the time am sad n terkongkong. my father sgt garang never say no to him ..tau la apa akan jadi later kalau u tak dengar cakap dia...i tak pernah hv da privillage of having things that i desire...lmbt la nak dapat n most of da time tak pernah dapat...masa i start living with my nenek i merasa la skit mewah tapi....itu pun masih lagi disekat kebebasannya..bila time dapat biasiswa tu wah! rasa best sgt .....tapi still i slalu hv to gv reason lau nak duit lebih..i have to....my biasiswa makngah pegang every week makngah bg duit.....sedey jugak la...tapi i know dia wat mcm tu ader reason nyer....am glad she did dat...

i once told my makngah i nak bl tu nak bl nie....makngah cakap bila kau dah keje u hv ur own money beli lah aper pun ko nak tak kan ader saper lagi nak larang sbb its ur money belilah.....i hold on to dats word n when i start working apa2 sahaja yang terlintas didepan mata n i like it i will surely buy...n i am satisfied after 23 years old i hold the desire now every single thing dat i desire i lepas geram i akan beli...am i crazy? well the hell with dats...I WANT IT AND I WILL GET IT...hahahahha....pretending or not pretending? live with it just dont over do it nnt its makan diri kita..............

BACK AT KUCHING...

2008-07-22T13:51:00.003+08:00

Hey guys am back at kuching clasess dh start..jadi routine kehidupan start back. I hv read nurul,anis,bonda n suzie's nyer blog..bnyk nyer luahan perasaan...tapi sumer masih berterima kasih with their life...me too... sgt thankful with what i hv now....tapi i am lonely here at kuching..korang at least dekat sgt ngan family paling jauh pun still leh pg melawat weekend..

tulah padan muka aku kan masa blajar aku selalu balik hehehehe..skang aku slalu balik jugak bila ader cuti tapi sebulan,dua bulan or tiga bulan sekali. the good thing is aku sgt independent...and i got the freedom yahoo!!! as usual aku tak reti nak bermadah macam kenkawan semua. i ve changed alot tho...i am more open minded n less nak marah2 tak tentu pasal not like before n malas nak layan org..aku wat keje aku sendiri...dats da most important thing. skang aku pun dh mula jadi mcm nurul tak semangat nak mengajar becoz ader certain lecturer here ustazah gitu ...yang konon nyer baik tapi lagi jahat dari dari aku...sangat hipokrit...i hate them... ader 2 berlagak mentang2 kawan ngan senior..ek eleh tak mati la aku lau tak kawan n tegur korang...bak kata anis hehehehe bosan kan...aku mmg tak amik port dh...aku nie rapat ngan dak ustaz2 n english lecturer yg laki lau yg pompuan tu suku jelah yg lain aku anti sensgt...aku benci dowg sangat hipokrit dan menyusahkan aku...

aper yg wat aku benci kat dowg cerita nyer begini. ader lecturer tu dia partner aku dlm urusan MUET nak dijadikan cerita dia tak wat keje..yg lagi sakit hati masa aku sibuk handle register MUET students dia boleh hilang pg shopping complex baru kat kuching nie...dia pg ngan 2 org ustazah n 1 org lecturer english yg kepoh dia bendahari jabatan aku dh 7 bulan tak bayar duit collection dh dia tak dtg mintak kat aku padan muka aku tak nak bayar smpi bila... kakak nie dia tau dia ader keje dia leh tinggal kan aku terkontang kanting n wat muka tak bersalah dulu aku tolong dia masa dia susah...lau korang aper korg wat? aku dahla kena handle 270 students k..aku sorg dia besuka ria pg makan sushi...jadi mulai dari hari itu aku tidak lagi bercakap atau mengambil peduli hal2 yg ader kena mengena ngan dorg..yg lain tu yg tak der kena mengena tu boleh plak nak mogok jugak ngan aku ..saper yg salah? aku ker kakak tu? xpayah la nak buat baik sangat ngan org...jadi selfish siap keje ko dah dats it...

aku skang handle MUET sensorg sumer benda tak payah harap org lain...to nurul n anis korg dh dpt APC huhuhu bila lagi lah giliran aku...suzie.....susah kan kita nak dpt APC ....lau ader rezeki sblum aku pindah semenanjung tak kira la kat mana pun aku nak dpt APC jgk lah hehehehe...jeles....ahahahahahaha....aku kuat kan semangat aku utk terus berjaya tgk kejayaan kenkawan...dan jugak kebahagiaan korang...

NUrul wah best nyer bini superstar skang.. hopefully dpt la tgk gig laila's lounge nanti aku cuti bulan 8 nie...suzie turun la kl kita cuti kan sama ...anis n nurul turun jgk cuti skool..bonda lapangkan diri anda t tau...kita wat gathering kecil-kecilan....lama tak jumpa kenkawan sumer..tapi jgn terperanjat tgk aku k...hehehehe.....lau ader ina g lagi best ngan askar2 dia hehehe....nurul aku wish all da best dlam percubaan pembuatan baby baru k....anis...aku respect ko..ko still anis yg dulu n anak ko chomel rindu kat hariz n tiger nyer....suzie all da best 2 u ko kawen mesti la kene time cuti..cuti kita kan serupa...hehehehehehe....kita kan under JPPKK.
Bonda maaf kan anaknda walaupun kita berada di daerah yg sama kita masih jarang berjumpa...paham2 sajala yer....

speaking about JPPKK nie.. haaa pasal transfer aku ni lagi satu aku nak ngamok jugak nie...eish!!! pening....aku pun tak paham mcm mana dowg select candidates yg layak transfer nie ha...yg uruskan tu org bawahan yg sign dia org atasan.. n aku sgt tak puas hati sbb yg baru 2 tahun lebeh tak sampi 5 tahun dh dapat tukar.....tapi aku dh 5 tahun berbakti langsung tak layak..jadi aper citer nie.....marah aku tau aku siap pg putrajaya ari tu sbb kat putrajaya ader kekosongan aku hantar by hand da resume tapi nama aku tak der dlm list interview nama org lain from Poli aku ader...nak kena guna kabel jugak ker? korang tak kenal sesiapa ker? aku lau by the end of this year aku nyer permohonan di tolak lagi mmg aku akan turun padang...i want to go home....sian kan aku....huhuuhuhuhu

aku bukan tak bersyukur aku ader kerja tapi aku rasa aku dh had enough kat sini i need new environment, i am ready to explore n aku nak balik to be with my beloved family and fwen......aku selalu sedey bl ader family aku celebrate bday ker wat gathering ker aku mesti ketinggalan huhuuhuhuh sedey....kawan kawen ker lau aku tak cuti mcm mana aku nak pegi...well manusia ader jer kan tapi aku bersyukur n aku still happy walaupun ader sedikit kekurangan dalam hidup aku...kan kenkawan kan...aku masih dapat mencuba utk mengecapi kebahagiaan..panjang nyer la aku menulis hari nie..aku tgh tak der kelas nie...miss u guys alot...walaupun korang jauh tapi sentiasa dekat di hati....mmmmmwah!!!!

da lil guys...

2008-06-25T15:20:00.002+08:00

chomel tak baby in dis picture..yg atas tu is my niece 1st niece in da family nama dia khalif...n yg bawah ni nama dia hana humairah my best fwen nyer 1st daughter...masa pg melawat sempat la jumpa another best fwen fara n nik yg pregnant 7 months..so cute and am happy for them..tah bila la my turn i just cant wait...n i cut my hair short. itu tanda nyer i dah let go da very precious thing in my life the patient n have the guts to built a new life.....nak tgk gambo buah hati baru aku tak? hahahahaha ....tak payah la ae....lau dh jadi nnt baru aku tunjuk hehehehheehe.....

HOLLA!!!

2008-06-25T15:01:00.003+08:00

OMG..lama gler tak update my blog. almost a year. maybe bcoz am too bz with life n hv no interest in updating da blog nothing interesting so far...lots of heart broken story but i regain my happiness again but in a different perspective n in a positive way..hey guys i know u miss me alot..i pun rindu sensagt kat u guys...nurul,anis,ina g,bonda n suzie i think it is still not too late to say congratulation..am happy for u....

wanna know about the thing that had happened in my life previously? well i broke off with fizul..at last am really heart broken but its for good. i am with someone new who is far better n who really loves me but ....dats all about it. do i love him? i dont know i like his company i am in the processess of knowing him and learning to love him..sound bad rite....but i dont know...am going with da flow..

i still in a process og waiting for da approval of my transfer..its been ages!!! almost 5 years and am not giving up yet...hopefully by this end of year i dapt balik kl..am hoping to be posted at PUTRAJAYA ....dats gonna make my life even easier....dekat ngan family and sangat dekat dengan my new buah hati...hopefully. i will never mengharap dats for sure....learned from mistake...interm of fwen....i miss every single person yg terlibat secara langsung n tak langsung in my life....am enjoying every moment that i have.....nak upload gambo terkini jap ae nnt aku upload...for ur info aku ader kat kl sampai 6 july sila lah turun huhuhuhuhuhuhu.....

HOLIDAY!!!!

2007-07-18T13:32:00.000+08:00

setelah 4 tahun aku tak jumpa anis...masa dia tunang aku tak pat pg...kawen pun tak pat pegi....lepas ade anak sorang baru aku jumpa dia...terubat la rindu aku kat dia...sambil ditemankan oleh nurul yg amik cuti rehat khas....thanks nurul....

time aku cuti..sumer keje sian aku...tapi tak dak masalah...kenkawan keje sanggup amik cuti utk spend time sesama ,it's been a while..bukan a while dah lama sangat tak jumpa kenkawan. especially anis...walaupun aku selalu kutuk ko...ko pun tau kan...tapi we still fwen aku ngaku selalu kutuk ko hahhahaha..tapi aku sayang ko as a fwen who appreciate me as a fwen...u accept me seada nyer...begitu juga nurul, bonda (xsempat nak kuar ngan bonda)n ina g yg jauh di tganu...masa cuti aku yg kali nie...aku bnyk kuar ngan aisyah jugak(sandra debbie)...n 1st time pg tgk cloudburst gig kat little havana..jumpa la bob..teringin nak jumpa syed tapi..dia bz nak kawen..dah selamat pun alhamdulillah moga bahagia ke anak cucu...sempat lepak ngan chad n kerol also...sempat la jumpa kenkawan lama....tapi teringin jugak nak jumpa ader sorg kawan lama yg dah lama menghilang...merajuk...tapi tak der rezeki lagi kot....

masa temankan nurul hantar anak2 nyer pg drama..aku envy sekejap kat nurul sbb nurul dapat wat something yg she really has passion on..if only i can be like dat...tak dpt peluang lagi..tgk students nurul perform sangat marvellous n very talented, meaningful...and entertaining..nampak kesungguhan dari budak2 tu...n dia owg sangat la sedih bila kalah..n rasa bersalah kat nurul sbb tak wat da best for her...dat was da sweetest thing la yg aku penah tgk...u are very lucky nurul n dia owg pun lucky sbb dapat teacher like you...n to anis wa caya lah sama lu....lu wat drama dapat 1st runner up lagi n best performance lagi wa salute la lu....canggeh..

sangat terharu tgk kenkawan sumer moga u guys happy selalu...

Delicious FOODS....

2007-07-17T12:43:00.000+08:00

antara aktiviti utama bejalan sambil jumpa kawan lama adalah MAKAN...Masa pegi temankan nurul anta bebudak drama dia pi wat check up kat sekolah D ada 29/6/2007. kIta owg lepas tu pg la melepak kat BP WALK..dasat kan saper tau Batu Pahat dah maju babe..impressive....MALL pun dah besau2..Kita owg pi mam kat tempat sup sedap bangat...aku mam sup gear box..dasat2 masih terasa kesedapan sup tersebut...sampai ari nie.......skang tgk gambo pun dah rasa terliur....ishk.....Thanks D for da treat....

ni plak masa kat kuala Perlis..aku sangat suka laksa...my best favourite food ever LAKSA!!!..i ate 2 mangkuk laksa...sket jer laksa dia sbenar nyer...tapi sodap sangat.....pastu makan pasembur anis ngan cucur ketam..curik anis nyer sket.....hehehehe....jauh kita owg bejalan sampai ke kuala perlis....

pada hari terakhir kat perlis anis bawak kita owg pg mam kat ape aek nama tpt tu tah...lau bab nama gua serender mmg tak ingat...tapi tpt ni LAKSA dia lagi special...extra special....lagi sedap dari yg semalamnyer ..makan semangkuk dah puas hati, mam ngan cendol special ader pulut, laici....mak ai ....SEDAPPPPPP......Slurpppp..... si anis pun teruja tgk laksa kita owg dia rasa sket heheheh....pastu aku mam dia nyer mee hoon soup sedap jugak....macam mana nie tak leh handle aku nih..aku tlg abiskan mee hoon soup dia..jangan tak tau kawan nyer pasal anis siap ponteng skool lagi for us...thanks fwen...ader sket lagi bab makan ...kat umah anis jugak la pertamanya aku merasa makan burung puyuh...sedap jugak rupa nyer..pastu mam pulut rawa durian btol ke tah nama nyer...n anis wat caremel.....cuba jer korang teka berat aku berapa masa aku balik kl? hahhahaha naik 4 kg......hahahhahahaha tak per puas hati....perasan tak tak der budak kecik? ni ada lah disebabkan anak2 mak budak 2 owg nie..tdo.......dibuai mimpi indah.....tak sabo nak pg jalan2 jumpa kawan n pegi makan hehehe....

sambungan ...

2007-01-29T12:42:00.000+08:00

ni nama dia bajai ...bunyi bising bangat lau naik lau nak naik 3 owg je muat pemandu 1 org penumpang 3..dia basically vespa yg telah di modify....tak der aircond urgh ...tak tahan....asap!!!
1st place kita owg pegi as soon as sampai di jakarta btolak kol 6 pg from bandung sampai jakarta kol 10 lah sebab macet(traffic jam) sepatutnya perjalanan 2 jam jer ....mall ni nama dia kelapa gading mall dia ader inter connection place with another 2 mall...sangat besau b4 masuk ader pak guard scan handbang takut2 ader bom wahahhaha..sumer mall mcm tuh...
i like the wording "i always says shopping is cheaper than a psychaitrist" it's true!! agree with it 100%..tapi mall dia sama expensive ngan kl jadi window shopping jer tapi ader bl cd oroginal el divo rm30.00 jer...
these are some of d handbags that we bought 1st nyer bach..2 nd bach tak sempat nak amik some of it for rwens n couzin...murah 20.00 jer....bnayk kaler yg guess nyer lagi la bnyk tapi ader kat kl jadi tak lah dibeli....bl yg biasa tapi nmpk mahal....
us n auntie amy sekeluarga at Punchak jakarta, tourist destinatination..yg view dia sangat cantek...tapi lau nak dibandingkan antara bandung dan jakarta..bandung udara mcm kenting n cameron sejuk mandi pun rasa mcm ais batu ketul...tapi jakarta panas bangat....tak tahan..tapi punchak ni sejuk ...
eh sesat lak kita pg backword jap kat bandung dalam umah modaaku dah penat shopping jadi lepak jap...nice place...
ni on d way nak ke tpt kediaman kita owg kat bandung mcm dalam cite janji joni tpt dia...rasa mcm kat spain la konon hehehehe....lorong dia memang dekat2 mcm ni antara satu rumah ngan satu rumah ...
malam terakhir di bandung kat cabe rawit...tpt best mkn pun best ader western food n ader local food n delicious...
ni lah antara menu yg kat dlm pizza hut .....ader nasi goreng n etc...n speghetti pun banyak lagi choice...dia nyer menu tu wat kita owg tetarik rege murah by baper hinggit jer...

heylow guys!!

2007-01-29T11:56:00.001+08:00

Hye guy!! sowi been bz lately ..as usual new semester start being bz with MUET thing, new clasess....new students and ect...miss u guy ...korang pun cuti sonyap jer ..hehehhe but i understand i did call nurul bcoz heard bout johor banjir at dat time i am at bandung n jakarta holiday with my sis, couzin and makngah....also heard bout ina g trnsfer to trengganu huhuhuhu...bonda sowi balik tak sempat jumpa bonda bz sangat...balik kejap pastu dah ke indon n as arrived at kl d next day dah balik kuching...tu pun balik sana hari selasa...anis how are u? mesti seronok dapat jumpa ur hubby...apa2 pun this new year all da best to u guys k ...hope still keep in touch k ...i ve got some pictures utk tontonan umum while i was at bandung n jakarta..for 10 days long vacation luckily ader couzin so hotel dah safe...and highly recomended shopping overthere lau ader rezeki i think it going to be my annual visit there bandung i think sbb bnyak gler Factory Outlet and its cheap branded brand like guess, esprit, ck, dkny, banyak even org jakarta pun turun bandung ...i ll say good bye to singapore hehhehehe...handbags god banyak gler 50,000 rupiah...equal to rm20 n sangat smart and trendy..i n my sis borong 15 handbags for ourselves,couzin n frenz hehehhehehe....cool kan ...tapi trip overthere mmg worth it...

this is me n my couzin rabiatul adawiyah just finished her spm waiting for d result jadi glad she could join us she bought soooo many cd's for herself ...gler cd pirate sangat murah rm2.50 duit kita dvd lagi hahahhahaa....

me, my sis n my twin couzin of mine we were born in d same day 25 november 1980 masa jer tak tau she indonesian n her name ezi....she was our tour guide n thanks to her we got place to stay ...we will be back..insyaallah cadang nyer end of this year lau ada rezeki ..

guys!!! look at d handbags...lelong2 murah sangat....pilih jak mana yang suka..all along this road jual handbags.necklace yg beaded n sooo cheap!!!! gosh!!!

we were at RUMAH MODA best outlet ever...jeans!!! cheap, good quality n branded u just name it!!! mesti ader nyer....we end our nite eating bakso.. at bakso kapitang nice place babe mcm kat club seat dia sofa very comfortable setelah lelah bjalan...hari pertama hehehhe...
d menu..dia bagi pencil ngan kertas... tulis menu sendiri babe hehehhehe....

second day mula lepak jap kat kedai wat jeans u can custom made ur jeans..choose d material dat u like, ukur choose how u want it to be done n walah murah ....jahit + bahan 65000 rupiah =RM28.00

US at pizza hut great place great pizza better then malaysia...lagi bnyk makanan..hehehhe more variety...banyak lagi gambar ku nak tunjukkan ..jap aku ader kelas sambung jap lagi k...mwah enjoy !!!!

RAYA 2007

2006-11-09T10:45:00.000+08:00

HYE!!!!
lama nyer tak update blog bz sket...kenkawan pun mesti bz all d teachers sbb spm dah nak startkan.good luck guys i knew how its feel..walaupun aku tak dak ajar bebdk spm tapi aku tau pressure dia pengetua mesti sibuk pasal percentage stdnts lulus..hmm biasala tu...most of our education institution care bout passing d students up.wasnt dat sad..when is this going to change? dah la forget bout it then...

Selamat hari raya to all FWENS..ESPECIALLY TO ALL THE MODS MOM N FAMILY, ANIS, BUNDER,INA G N NURUL ..N TO THOSE WHO READ THIS BLOG..

i got several picture during raya......dat i want to share with u guys...hope u ll enjoy it....this raya we all me,my sis makngah n ucu's family celebrate it at kajang at ucu's place.. sbb nenek dah tak der jadi xla beraya at umah bukit at Kemensah....

malam b4 raya me n my couzin went to jln tar mak ai!!! ramei nyer owg...ingtkan tak dak owg tahun ni raya mcm ramai datang raya kat kl lak even jln2 biasa pun sesak jugak..

all these pics was taken after solat raya n b4 we all BERAYA mintak maap..as usual pasti akan ader drama sket..emotional scene last2 ngan aku2 skali nangisn sebak..then afta dat we all went to visit kubur belated nenek..atuk..mom, uncle man n u'nyang at datuk keramat...then start beraya ke rumah nenek gombak n then all d family member gather at ucu's house lepak2 sampai mlm...syok!!!

this is me, makngah n my big little sista....

me n big little sista...contol2 ..hhehee

me n genious little yaya..she undestand every sigle word u said..it's true...tak tipu..maybe bcoz of genetic or MAYBE sbb dia suka tgk disney channel...

n this is ucu's family..start from left is aniisa, maksu,yaya,ucu n aiman...serba turqoise...

that is for today folks!! hehehe..nnt update lagi lau ada masa..n cant wait to be back for cuti to meet everyone ..TUNGGU!!! ..mesti bestkan nurul ko nyer jamuan..mesti ko melaser abis hehehe...later...daaaaa....

BALIK KAMPUNG.

2006-10-19T08:39:00.000+08:00

GUYS!!! am comin back to kl my flight is tonite at 8.20 ...and will be arriving at 11.00 ...hehehe..beshnyer....balik kampung lalalalaala..teringat masa belajar dulu lau time cuti raya coursemate and housemate mesti sibuk nak balik kampung beli tiket takut habis...me tak payah susah2 balik naik komuter dah sampai umah harharhar ..tak terasa pun xcited tgk kenkawan mcm besh jer ...dari kecik sampai abis blajar tak kemana kat kl jer....paling jauh practical kat rembau itu pun every weekend still balik bcoz of grandmom...tapi skang nenek dah tak der mesti rasa tak mcm slalu....hmmmm.....

sambung balik...sekali dapat posting sampai ke sarawak hah! amik ko...jauh berbatu..berlaut2...nak balik raya la paling xcited rasa nyer...tiket sebulan sblm raya dah beli...bleh berbuka sesama ngan family nnt...am fully booked utk buka posa hari jumaat with all my attitude teenagers frenz(schoolmate), hari sabtu family reunion kat shakeys..its our annual year nyer gathering every ramadhan...n sunday bonda ajak buka sama....hehehehehe....besh kan....

well sebelum i pulang wanted to wish everybody..anyone yang baca this blog SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN...hopefully all of d kad raya yg i post sumer dah dapat...dan jika ada kesempatan insyaalah dapat la kita jumpa....

to anis - buat kuih banyak2 tu anto la sket kat aku..aku teringat kat kek coklat ko sedapnyer..
to bunder - balik raya nnt bawak keta baru elok2 k..ckap ngan aidit jgn bwk keta laju2 ingat
ingat owg tersayang
to ina g - aku dpt sms ko kul 5 pagi tadi...hehehe nasib baik ko sms lau tak telepas subuh aku TQ
to nurul - tabahkan la hati ko menghadapi kerenah cikgu2 kat sekolah ko k..manusia biasalah...ko anggap jer dia owg tu badut mana2 yg ko tak suka la..aku slalu wat camtu..asalkan keje kita settle...

to kenkawan lain raya bergembiralah...........hidup kita bukan nyer lama sambil bergembira jgn lupa amal ibadat kita...INSYAALAH...

to hubbie - i ll see u at d airport tonite, misz u bebeh!!!

CHOW!!!!!

balik kg...oooooooOOOOO..balik kampung hati girang.................hehhehehehe

OPIS KU....

2006-10-03T08:32:00.000+08:00

This is me at my ofis which is known as Jabatan Pengajian Am..i ve been working here for almost 3 years…and am still here n still enjoying working here until now..this picture was taken pukul 4.00 p.m 15 minutes before balik hehhehe….muka pun dah x fresh lagi..This is my place …its my place ..hehehehe…this is our new office actually b4 this d office was too small and too many lecturers in it…but then we moved to a new building…sitting in front me is SUKHVIN guys do u still remember him? hahahaha the salman khan wanna be...dia adalah orang yg slalu menyemak kan pandangan mata i in this office..but he is a good officemate very helpful sometimes bila mtk tlg punchkan hehehe...

This is some of d file that we have to do untuk menunjukkan bahawa we r working all the teachin plan and lesson we have to prepare rancangan mengajar semester,rncg mengajar harian, jadual waktu...attandance ,silibus....attandance, surat penangguhan kelas lau pg kursus dan senarai semak frp dan banyak lagi benda2 lain....samalah mcm korang wat buku rekod kan...dan benda yg paling penting utk aku,,is my dictionary and thesaurus....

NI harta yg kat bawah meja aku ade 7 pasang kasut hehehe ... i like shoes very much...ni baru 1/6 kasut aku lagi 5/6 ade kat umah ...i will only wear it during class session selain dari tu susah sket lah..bie aku selali perli aku kuar ngan dia tak nak plak pakai kasut heel hehehehe...lau keluar ngan dia mestilah nak rasa selesa..bjln bukan sekejap lau nak pakai heel gamak nyer bengkok la aku...nanti aku ..aku sangat obses dengan kasut ..i will buy any shoe yg membuatkan aku fall in love at d first sight....lau takder size abis stock i will haunt down d kasut at other branch sampai dapat...we as a teacher at least have to show that we a a role model we need to look MOD...mcm yg nurul kata ...we have to be different because we are ENGLISH TEACHER..and i am glad i am a teacher now.

kursus at genting..

2006-08-24T12:23:00.000+08:00

THESE s d ballroom dat we were in during our course at GENTING...well u could imagine is it work or holiday? hahahaha of course holiday.......but still work is important "wink!" wink!" hehehe..all of the representatives from all polytechnic an community collages were there to undergone d painful experience of d presented module dat gonna be used for teaching d selected lecturers....some of d unit presented was not suitable but then we are to follow it...it's a last minute thing and many mistakes...interm of grammar..spelling....symbol....even d instruction...well dat is not something new rite....but still it would able to give us some input n guidelineson how n what to teach n expose d lecturers ops!!! to motivate d lecturers to use english in d classroom and by d year 2008 polytechnic n community collages will use english language as d medium of communication teaching n learning...hopefully ....
OK ...sitting in d middle is my KJ...next to him is maxwell and mr Branat our ketua unit well d old one hehehehe....
only 7 of us were selected as we are d best among d best ..how flattered ...no lah everyone are d best but we r d choosen one ..cool kan....i saw kasmara name in d list but seems he was not there ...hmmm...baru teringat nak jumpa kawan lama....tak der rezeki ....out of dis course after di lantik as trainer i was suppose to teach at mas gading community collage sarawak and some of them were sent to kota kinabalu..our target participants were 25 participants per session n guess what i contacted d community collage n found out dat there r only 5 participants going for TOT and 2 of us teaching them ..so irony kan...then...it has to be cancelled n further notice will be informed..and am really pissed off...bcoz am stuck at kuching during dis 2 weeks holiday...hate it!!!! if i know this thing gonna be happen i tak balik kuching balik after abis kursus sambung terus cuti...marah nih....sangat marah.. wat ever...

This is me with yolanda d person who is an expert in teaching and has so many good idea n dia adalah parti pembangkang who doesnt agree with some of d thing being stated in d module...bcoz of her everyone know us...bcoz of d laserness n disatisfaction huhuhu...dat gang who from kuching d oversea people....i like....COOL....

my sis convo...

2006-08-24T11:07:00.000+08:00

Its my sister convo..after waiting for almost 5 years now she's graduated ...bukan nyer aper nak tunggu dia start living her own life not depending anymore with me..so that she could learn to earn her own money to buy things dat she wants..seksa tau....asal takder duit hah..baru nak teringat kat kakak dia...if not she not going to contact me..sister2...mengeluh dat doesnt mean i dont like it but am glad she s my sister d one n only dat i love very much....now ...she's pursuing her life in new dimension..which i ll watch her and lend her my ears n help always....dats my promise.... hehehe saper yg grad nih.....well feels like its been soooooo long...remembering my convocation day..it's very tiresome u guys mesti agree kan whereby we have to wait like ages....to received our scroll and be graduated bcoz too many IT undergrads.....at d end of d day makeup pun dah cair and our parents pun dah grumble bcoz too tired no time to say good bye to frenz...quite terkilan but at least its d happiest day of my life....
well MMU is so canggih n i really impress with d technology....when my sister turn to received her scroll then jeng..jeng..jeng....her pic came out projected on d screen with a speech to us.."to my family...thanks for everything, love u guys so much.....muahs2...."
my sister n beloved makngah ..tak reti2 nak sonyum tau..penat owg ajar....ishk.....

selamat sampai di rumah still sempat posing my sis got d big teddy bear n 2 jambak bunga one from me and makngah n another one from makngah n she got pic frame from debbie n hadri....n i ve to go to genting to attent TOT course...just imagine how tired i am...wake up early in d morning 6.30am went to mmu then 4.30p.m rush to Genting..8.30p.m briefing...11.00 p.m zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZ...d next day 8.00 a.m d couse start....urgHHHH...tired not enough sleep n rest....help me....

my best couzin wedding part 2

2006-08-18T13:48:00.001+08:00

d next day after nikah ceremony is her bersanding day...u know what of course u guys dont know..well her baju sanding dat she is wearing tak siap lagi only finished jahit d manik rite after she finished with her make up...busuk kan dis couzin of mine ..haiya!!! am her pengapit tetiba jer my baju out of d theme color tak sama with d pngapit lelaki kan...but luckily his sampin look like peach so quite ok lah...

these r my family member if only my grandmom still alive she was waiting for dis moment to see her grand daughter getting married..but she passed away a month before d wedding...but still she would be glad and proud dat everyone were there together give help to make everthing succeed..alhamdulillah..

sorry d picture quite blurrrr....but d real picture dat taken by the photogpaher is nice...just unable to get it from debbie yet maybe later....
these are all d couzin dats in d same era which we have been together having fun with each other doing crazy thing during d childhood day..y hadri look like a crook hah? hehehe sowi sedara wa kutuk lu hehehe....welcome to our family...

u guys know where is their honeymoon? bali u know...it was fun ...n so romantic but the expenses there was tooooo expensive ...yalah only foreigner go there, they convert their money rupiah to us dollar ....oklah need to chow...

my best couzin wedding part 1

2006-08-18T12:52:00.000+08:00

This is my beloved 1st couzin ...debbie amrini bt shamsul bahri..we were born in d same year but different months am younger then her by 11months...huhuhu!!! cant belive she is married,d crazy couzin who was so unsure whether married is d good idea at d first place..plus with all d arguements,disatisfaction dat occur just becoz of dis marriage but lastly it end up marvelously...all of d rest of d family was so glad its end with happiness....congratulation my dear ...

That is her husband hadri...they only legally married after hadri succeed d ijab kabul on d second time...he has been practiced but still d first one d kadi doesnt want to approve on it...so kesian...but yet debbie is ur lovely wify now...

with this ring u will be my beloved wife which i will cherish u for d rest of my life...i accept thee my beloved husband...

now u may kiss d bride...hehehee...u can do what ever u want with her but later k....may ALLAH bless dis couple and may they able to live their life happily ever after insyaallah...

These hantaran was designed and made by my sister n makngah while debbie pelamin was designed by our ucu n maksu and i help them with it..anyone interested we think we want to make a family business out off dis interest....just let me know ...

Attitude teenagers

2006-07-27T12:16:00.000+08:00

well these are my bestest frenz since form 1 at sekolah menegah taman selayang (1) class of 199_ hehehe rahsia...i love them so much, 2 are married...1 engaged and 2 singles...but not available anymore...well these pictures was taken during our dinner at RENDEZVOUS at Jln Pahang 15th July 2006 after 5 years having difficulties to meet each other and at last all 5 of us able to gathered together celebrating fieda,nik and fara's birthday...well life changed but not our friendship alhamdulillah........the theme was pink.......they decided to have dinner since d next day am going back to kuching, sarawak working...urgh!! again...hopefully there ll be next time..*wink*wink*

me and fieda the oldest among us....n married....

me and fara..still single but not available anymore...both of us hehehe

me and nik....she's married also....saloma bistro's dancer

last one me and fizah...she is engaged next year insyaallah getting married

yesterday...

2006-07-27T08:43:00.000+08:00

urghhhh!!! yesterday, i ve wrote smthg for this blog but...BUT....the stupid internet connnection was disconnected at the last moment am finishing, writing something for my blog ..how frustrated i am....first trial dah condemn....well hv to start again ....

yesterday i wrote about friendship....
a really awful frienship relationship....the person whom u trust, whom u love, who u respect turn out to be ur worst enemy..what would u do? once upon a time there were 3 of us...everything was fun, happening and superb..we move in together but then the fun begin to decline,less fun...then one of us move out ...bcoz of the circumstances that cant be avoided..we ve been apart no more anxiety..only selfishness...each one of us follow our own path...

then there were 2 of us in the house... we still close together still share the laughter but less story less enjoyment....she bz with her own life..me with my own.. i never being a bz body about what she is doing..or what she did it's none of my business even when people asked me bout her my answer would be i dont know...when she is in difficulty i was there and said nothing bout what other people think bout her bcoz she is my frenz...so perasan sorang2....after 2 1/2 years all d disatisfaction shown clearly d selfishness revealed.....something happen and luckily i was not there if not only god knows.....

i know am not that good...neither do her...when it comes to my turn having to face a huge problem ..a really huge problem according to her and it does affect her so much and has disturb n interfere, jeoperdize dats d word dat she use... her safety and security...then she start to talk to other people bout me at d back...she is P.E.R.F.E.C.T she is W.O.R.T.H.Y....everything dats she said is true u suppose to listen to her...she knew everything....DUH!!!!

later then i knew bout her darkest secret after being her frenz for ages la jugak...everybody knew bout it only me didnt know bout it...its according to all d sources dat reliable not only one but almost all of them knew....i thought she really hv d brain...but actually showing off jer lebih...cermin diri dulu lah....

whatever it is things already happen.........am not talking to her anymore, move out from d house already and happy with my life now..much better all d privacy is mine..i can go anywhere with out anyone to bug me..with all d annoying sound which really interfere my life....i hate it ...and i hate her... its really a big mistake of knowing her...well dats my story....tell me bout ur story..this is only apart of d story but let d rest be my secret...

share smthg..what would u do if u were in my position? scold her? humiliate her?kill her? ahaks!!!!!

From here i begin....

2006-07-25T09:25:00.000+08:00

Well after i think dis is going to be a new start of a new emotional published diary hehehe...with this i start with bismillah..and with a quote..

"Love is hard work, which hurts everyone..."