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Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Make up

Beauty is something that is subjective...for me beauty can be defined through something that can be created, adjusted, covered and blended....it's applicable but not everyone can do it...I have encounter a new hobby nowdays..during my school days in primary and secondary school even up until my matriculation years...i can be considered as "buta fashion" and i am not up to date kind of person..never wear any make up and i dont fancy feminity..i only use bedak johnson and jonhson jer kot as far as i could remember..i am not feminin at all..trust me my sense of fashion was totally out dated and sucks hahahha...i envy those who are beautiful and have a good sense in fashion ..
Back then i am not confident with my apprearance ...i dont care about it...but later on there is a slight changed..it is maybe because of the influnce from my fwens ...they look good and seems to be more confident when they apply make up...and i myself start trying and experimenting we exchanged tips, lipstick and mascara, even blusher (nurul was the one who has everything and i ....not only me i believe...we..hahhaha always borrowed her make up )...i bought jonhson and johnson compact powder but i still use white one instead of natural color...i wore red lipstick or sometimes brown...and dats it....when i look back at d old pictures i will surely laugh like hell ..i looked so fierce ...but as time past by i read alot about make up..the basic necessity in applying make and etc...as i start working..i was like soooo crazy in buying all kind of make up supplies dat i can get in the market..trial and error..the 1st expensive make up ever dat i bought was estee lauder make up set worth RM600 ...there goes my money hahahha....but its ok it was my first salary of 3 months tunggakkan so no big deal hehehhe...
As time past by i able to learn 2 or more make up tricks and tips..i like natural make up application...with a little touch up of highlite and bronzer WALAH!! my face GLOW.. Some of my family members start to ask me to make up for them and my BFF asked me to make up her, for her engagement.. i was nervous and flattered ...since then i told myself dat one day i would like to be a professional..and now since i have plenty of time...
I plan to attend a make up worksyop in JAKARTA..i know i can do it here in KL...i ve search for few available worksyop one of it conducted by IAN SHAM one of the well established malaysian make up artist...2 days worksyop will cost me about RM500-RM600 only...
Actually i want to get away for vacation so might as well i just go straight to JAKARTA rite...hehehe and i can really learn good make up tips and tricks from there...u guys know rite how beautiful indonesian women can be when their make up artist make up them...even i can fall in love with them...hey..hey dont get me wrong i am not lesbian...i just love beauty OK..hahaha..
Now i am so into BOBBI BROWN..i ve bought few basic BOBBI BROWN make up kit and supplies and i bought BOBBI BROWN makeup Manual ..an i am in a quest to master the skill of make up...wish me luck guys....i just want to try out....
My uncle is pursuing his business in dis wedding event management kind of thing..he loves pelamin so much..my sister is into hantaran thing..and becoming a wedding planner for her fwen who is gonna get married next month...and me i like make up ....i can be their make up artist hehehhehe....wasnt it great...^_^
this picture was taken during my cousin engagement early APRIL..
This one was during my BFF engagement i think it was in 2008 i believe...i did d hair also penat tuh...hehehehehe...enjoy it guys....


tantek tak? tantek kan.....sgt sweet...
P/S: if u guys ader any contact no about any make up worksyop do let me know k....even any interesting website about make up dat u guys know i am hoping dat u guys can share with me also..lots of love ~JULES~










Monday, May 17, 2010

u know wut...

i know i ve change alot..i know dat i am not like before..its something dat i choose to be rite now..i know people concerned about me so much but please dont feel sorry for me..because when you guys do dat it really hurts...i know ur intention is good and because u guys care about me i dont have doubt bout it..but it doesnt make me feel better..so please stop and let me do wut ever i want to do....i just want to be MYSELF rite now this is me ..have some respect please...if u want to talk about me behind my back go ahead.. i dont care because it's my LIFE...not urs....
care about ur own LIFE la dude...not others....WTF!!! u dont really know wut happen to me so dont judge n dont pretend like u r great..u r happy, superior OR better than me because ur r obviously not O.K....and u know wuts missing in ur LIFE...fix urs first .....duhhhhh!!!!

i wont...

SOME DAY YOU WILL CRY FOR ME ;
like i cried for you...
SOMEDAY YOU WILL MISS ME;
like i missed you...
SOMEDAY YOU WILL NEED ME;
like i needed you...
SOMEDAY YOU WILL LOVE ME;
but i wont love you anymore.........

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

DEJAVU...

dah terlalu lama since last post...way back when i am still with him...we break off in a good way after a real devastating moment between me and him...am in pain and he was lost...i was hoping that things would be like before but after spending my time with him for about 2 weeks i realized he was not meant for me anymore...we fought, we cursed, we hated each other so much at that time...when am with him i felt lonely..because he was not with me..he is in his own world the more i tried the more complicated things were...
when i decided to move on, i loose him...and am in pain...i still remember i ve decided to let him go when he sent me his last FB mail ...and i realized it is time for me to let him fly away...we did not communicate, we just knew we should end it..so it ends without say...it just END..i try to be strong but i cried the whole night thinking why does dis have to happen to me again ....and again...and again...i am just tired with all dis...
now it has been 2 months ..i felt sad n missing him like crazy..i did acknowledge him in his FB..do chat with him once or twice asking how he was but later on i realized that he is not mine anymore so i tried to hold everything back, all da feeling and emotion need to be ended A.S.A.P.....so i decided to block his FB..because i dont want to know what is happening to him..i dont want to know with who he is now..i just dont want to care...i changed my hp no...i force myself to forget him...because he hurts me..i harap tuhan akan beri pembalasan yang setimpal dekat dia...i taknak simpan dendam, itu urusan dia dengan tuhan...only god knows apa yg dia dh buat kat i...
i am strong ...i know but all da memories dat i hAD when am with him keep on bugging me.. i would like to erase it but i cant..iT will takes time and i wish ada software yg boleh delete unwanted memories dalam brain ni ha...i wish.....
BUT STILL i cant lie ..i cant avoid this feeling...and i cant deny...i still love him ....i am ....he is still in my heart.. i realize it is pathetic but that is what i feel.....we had something before and i cant just erase u that easy from my mind and my heart.....